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genderwild mystic; diary #8 / The Golden Bookcase

I have a golden bookcase of books. Not literally. I mean the books themselves are golden, and if they were stored in an actual golden bookcase, the case would barely be noticed, for the wisdom shining from the books within it.

This golden bookcase is on my desk, in my office. It is only fifteen or so books wide at the moment, but these are precious books, favourite books, those books that I know if studied from all possible angles, in all possible combinations, would reveal all we need to know about creating heaven on Earth.

There is a surplus of wisdom in this world. There is wisdom everywhere you look, if you look correctly. Oh, the tiresomeness of ‘revelations’ that folk proclaim and write about and sell millions of copies on the back of! And here I am with my own tiresome revelation! Everything we need to know is here already, in the wealth of experience we have already had, and already read.

Two days until January -Veganuary- begins. What role do I have in this senseless celebration of the neoliberal capitalist turning of the yearly wheel? I have nothing to celebrate except my wonderful presence on this wonderful plane, and in this delight of biodiversity on Earth! Everything else is bullshit and dust…

But there is one thing. Again and again and again, I am lonely. I seek my brethren. I am a lonely bull elephant, wondering in what remains of my forest home. I don’t seek other bulls. I seek to be welcomed by the matriarchy, the herd of females. Even as I practise sexual restraint, I would like a little polyromance, a little polyintimacy -for these do not explicitly need sex to flower. A hug, a smile, a nice date out somewhere in this crumbling empire that surrounds us; some lovely and interesting female company to muse on the decline of capitalist civilisation with, and a signal that I am at least a little understood.

For now I am held together –well gathered– by my practises of restraint and renunciation -a vegan diet and sleeping on the hard floor (which is strangely comforting)- as well as the golden bookcase.

The first lines of one golden book read like this:

‘A way that can be walked is not The Way                                                                                      A name that can be named is not The Name’ 

?You Gather? Vegan & Climate Activism #3

Happy New Year? Maybe. How was your festive period? Mine was very low key. Time for me to reflect, read books, do some writing, and finish the first version of my business plan for Epic Tomorrows, which was finally signed off by my government-employed business adviser yesterday (the 28th). Funnily enough, the British government are funding me to develop informational resources which challenge the British government. Email me at epictomorrows@gmail.com if it would be useful for you to have a copy of the plan. Especially if you are vegan or a climate activist. 2019 is a great year to start a business themed around veganism or climate activism. My own flagship business product is explained here.

I’ve also been enjoying continuing my work for Extinction Rebellion (XR) albeit in a more relaxed and sparse way than I have been in recent months. We have a good regenerative culture building within XR, e.g. we encourage each other to take time out and recuperate. I have been enjoying reading about the recent XR BBC blockade action in London. I couldn’t be there myself, but I did take part in the now infamous November 2018 bridge blocks, at which I was arrested. It’s amazing how XR have managed to create atmospheres around their actions which are both edgy, facilitating non-violent direct actions which end in arrests, and also family friendly, often with children contributing to the debate on the microphones. I put this down to the discipline of non-violence which prevails, drawing on the traditions of Gandhi and Martin Luther King.

I hope that those of you who are non-vegan but are considering a more plant-based diet will try out ‘Veganuary’ i.e. going vegan for the whole of January. This simple exercise in self-restraint is itself a type of activism and has value on many different levels, from the personal and political to the commercial and environmental. Here’s a website to help you do it.

When it comes to vegan educational resources and campaigns, Viva! are one the forefront organisations (in case you didn’t know).

If you really want to go for it with climate activism in 2019, we are in such a dire emergency now that I would advise you join one of the more radical climate activist groups that have formed in the past two years. For the UK, a good bet is XR. Internationally there are also the options of ‘By 2020 We Rise Up’, ‘This Is Zero Hour’ and ‘We Don’t Have Time’. There are many more resources for vegans and activists which I will be gathering together all in one place in my Well Gathered spreadsheet, version one of which will launch on March 29th. (For £5, it will save you doing all the legwork of searching through and vetting hundreds of activism related sites. I also promise to use all feedback to make the second version even better.)

I’m a romantic person, and you could say I have quite a romantic idea of what could happen in 2019 for vegan and climate activists, and hence for the whole of society. We really are in the cow-shit when it comes to climate breakdown and ecological collapse, and unfortunately our short-sighted democracies are just not equipped to take the radical and far-reaching economic, technological and social restructuring measures required. These measures are required to avert an otherwise likely global temperature rise of 4 degrees by the end of the century, a 4 degrees which some scientists and complex systems theorists say is ‘incompatable’ with organised human civilisation as we know it. Does that scare you? It should do! Look here for some good science.

My ‘romantic’ vision is one of massive planetary change, but I dare not go into too much detail here, because all our visions are different, and we need a shared vision of change, for any significant change to happen.

Speaking of romance, I hereby make a call-out to lovely, polyamorous, vegan, climate activist entrepreneur women to even notice me in 2019 and ask me out on a date 🙂 Or if I’m being too fussy, vegetarian, climate activist, polyamorous, and female would be okay. And lovely. I live in the southwest of England. Near Exeter. And sometimes Bristol. Maybe near you sometimes. If you want.

As always everyone, please get in touch with any of your vegan activist and / or climate activist dilemmas. If you are seeking information or advice you can’t find, maybe I can help you (for free I mean). Respond to this post or drop me a line at epictomorrows@gmail.com or send me a voice recording (that would be extra nice, audio content is more human).

To hear my vocal rendering of the spirit of this post, visit Epic Tomorrows on Soundcloud.

?You Gather? Vegan & Climate Activism #2

The last few days has been family time. My family are not vegan and they are not activists, but I love them all the same. My mum is proud of my direct action climate activism with Extinction Rebellion (XR). She said something about wishing she had engaged in such activism, but not feeling able to, and being therefore glad that I am engaged instead.

I’m in Somerset, Hatch Beauchamp -the village where my mum and step-dad live. I have a stinking cold. I’m looking back over a year of turbulence. Turbulence in my own life but also in the field of climate science and the politics that is affected by that science. Every now and again I have doubted the mainstream consensus view on anthropogenic global warming, but every time I have read even more deeply into the subject and come out with a renewed conviction that yes, we are (almost) fucked, and yes, it is almost certainly our own doing and therefore yes, we should be rebelling against our governments until they take appropriate action. I’m glad I’m with XR.

Here is an article about a recent piece of information gathering which may be of interest to you, regarding so-called ‘climate tipping points’.

As I gather my thoughts, and gather information for my product-in-development, the Well Gathered spreadsheet for vegan and climate activists, I realise something. It is this: as climate breakdown is a global issue more urgent than any other, affecting absolutely everyone, the response must be a radically inclusive one, which means a non-binary one.

This means that as radical climate activists we must build bridges between all opposing ideologies, identities and groups, in the name of saving humanity itself and the many other species in danger of extinction. This includes building bridges between the religious and the non-religious, between the different religions, between opposing political viewpoints and between vegans and meat-eaters.

It may be up to those of us who are vegans to take the initiative in building bridges with our meat-eating human brethren. I urge all militant vegans to look at the bigger picture here -if we can work together as a species to tackle climate breakdown, then naturally more meat eaters will go vegan. On a scientific level it’s well established that humans need to switch to a more plant-based diet for a sustainable future on Earth, including in response to global CO2 emissions and the paucity of carbon sinks worldwide, with forests cleared by the agricultural industry -particularly meat and dairy- and the growing threat of forest fires.

Practically speaking, the bridges will be built more quickly if vegans set a great example as non-violent direct action activists at the forefront of the climate rebellion -that rebellion that includes XR, that is gathering momentum daily now. As XR has demonstrated, non-violence is the key to success, which includes non-violence in communication. Partly this means, if you want to assure a future for humanity in the long-run alongside a diversity of other species, it’s best you don’t pick fights with meat-eaters (or anyone).

Vegans and climate activists all, it’s time we got our shit together.

 

?You Gather? Vegan & Climate Activism #1

As none of you will know (unless you’re reading this on Facebook) I’ve been involved with some of that there ole climate activism recently (as the Devon elders of my village probably never say). The radical kind that gets you arrested and whatnot. Fridays (today is a Friday) I am now having as ‘regenerative culture’ days, where I fast for most of the day, reflect on groundedness and take a breather from my combined activist-entrepreneur lifestyle. Extinction Rebellion is the non-violent direct action campaign that I am involved with. See the UK page here. On one level it’s a blast. On another level, it’s a very serious business -the most serious thing I have ever been involved with in my life. Extinction Rebellion (XR) is the very good reason behind me neglecting this blog recently.

I don’t regret anything. I have made some great friends in XR, learnt a whole lot about human-caused climate breakdown and I continue to work for the movement, for radical system change in the light of The Evidence of worsening ecological collapse -it’s a good job I’m long-sighted. I support XR even to the point of being arrested in London for peacefully blocking roads with hundreds of others. This is what happened a couple of weeks back.

But now it’s time for me to step back a little, to concentrate on self-regeneration and making a living. If I can’t generate an income for myself, then I can’t afford the luxury of being deeply involved in an activist movement. Not unless I renounced materialism completely, which I’m not prepared to do. My time spent in monasteries in my twenties has given me some good meditation skills and helped cultivate something of a non-attachment to life, but I choose to be materialistic right now, to be able to generate some cash to move about a bit, and maybe even to generate enough eventually, to redirect it to support causes like XR. And I’ll be careful about where and who that income comes from too.

Today, a Friday fast day, I made sure to get some air outside, walking the footpaths of North Tawton village in the biting cold. I enjoyed the bite of both the wind and the hunger pangs which I know strengthen this body for potentially tough times ahead -on the global level which I have strong empathy for.

Earlier, before my walk, I reflected on the product I am building, for a later release now of 29th March 2019. I have been collecting data for this product -a spreadsheet for activists, particularly vegan and climate activists in southwest England- by bookmarking websites. In the midst of this gathering work I realised that the most important kind of gathering is collecting of the self, in this modern society that is full of much opportunity (for some, for the privileged entrepreneur like me) and also so much fragmentation (for most of us). It is the greatest personal, even spiritual, work in modern times to collect everything you need -information, practices, parts of yourself- that may have been rendered inaccessible to you for a long time, or even since forever.

During my activism and reading recently I have encountered problematic dynamics between vegans and non-vegans, and also a lack of comprehensive efforts between vegan and climate movements to join together on some actions and campaigns. I hope that with my upcoming informational product I will gather and curate information in such a way as to encourage climate and vegan activists to work together more. I am vegan myself (usually!), but not militantly. I do empathise with militant vegans, I am just not one of you. If you are one, I would like to support you in getting through to non-vegans, at least non-vegan climate activists, in a diplomatic way.

It may be trite to say ‘We could all do with getting along more’, but it’s true, and I think we will see more co-operation between various environmental activist movements as the global ecological situation becomes more urgent still.

However, we must mindfully gather ourselves together, before attempting to gather others.

Listen to the audio representation of this post on Soundcloud here.

Activist Diary #5

In an hour and a half I board the coach from Exeter to London. Tomorrow I will be in Parliament Square with hundreds, perhaps thousands of others, for the declaration of Extinction Rebellion. Others who, like me, have realised that drastic measures are needed to wake up the governments of the world to the worsening ecological crisis -particularly to climate breakdown.

Of course, as a whole our governments know what is going on. They would rather sacrifice many of our lives than take on the hard and initially unpopular work of global system change that is so needed. If we were in their shoes, of course we would do no better. Changing our politicians within the current system won’t help us respond to this drastic emergency. With compassion and assertiveness, we rebel against our governments, and we do it civilly.

This starts today.

I feel petrified but exhilerated to be travelling to London at this important time. Today I put my habit of social anxiety aside. I must. Today is part of a wider series of events and trends globally that speak of a turning point in modern global history, and the stirrings of a mass mobilisation of people willing to peacefully ‘fight’ for their lives, as well as the lives of other species on this planet.

What we are beginning to witness, what we must help to manifest, are the rumblings of a leviathan of a movement that is projected to be far greater than the mobilisation of the Allied forces during WWII, and more decisive.

So how do I feel? I feel disappointed in humanity that I have to face these days that make me so anxious for myself and deeply fretful about likely future scenarios that my nieces and nephews will be growing into. I feel angry and bitter towards folk in the street that I walk past every day, their apparent obliviousness to what is going on as they consume, consume, consume. I feel angry and sad.

I feel resolute, after spending time with my blood-niece recently, that I will do what I can to help change the course of history at this pivotal time, even if that means being arrested for peaceful direct action, blocking the roads that taken us in the wrong direction for far too long.

I feel resigned to this potentially difficult path of civil disobedience that lies ahead of me. I feel wearied by it ahead of time. But I also feel the stirrings of a warrior within me. That warrior that must awake within me to carry me forward beyond the limited behaviours of my life that have carried me thus far. That warrior spirit that must awake within all of us if we are to truly rise to this deepest challenge of our times.

Once this spirit begins to awaken, joining with others in Extinction Rebellion, there is a great feeling of shared purpose, a joyful and deep purpose, perhaps the purpose we were all born for in these times.

It is this joy I want to share with you. I feel it only in moments, but I suspect that it will grow.

And grow and grow and grow.

The launch that was as soft as a feather

Tomorrow is the soft launch date for my first product -a spreadsheet for activists. By ‘soft launch’ I mean in this instance that I was going to give it away to family, friends, and those who have helped me out with market research.

But it isn’t ready.

It isn’t ready because I have been spending all my time on Extinction Rebellion. I’m not bitter and I’m not resentful. Extinction Rebellion (XR) is teaching me a lot of skills -skills that I have never gained from any ‘regular’ paid job. People skills. Software skills. Management skills and leadership skills. These are all skills that will help my business.

Moreover, I am in the thick of the XR movement. I am learning about other activists, what makes them tick and what information may be useful to them. I never consciously engage with my fellow rebels from a place of market research, but I know that subtly, these interactions will later inform my understanding of my business audience, for which I am grateful.

I haven’t failed to launch my product. I’ve actually sent the bare bones of what I have so far to a good friend of mine. I did that today, so I launched a day early. My new plan is to keep relaunching after every short burst of feedback from a friend or a few. To reiterate this softly softly launch until it gets bigger and harder. Until next year when I intend to be in a position to charge for it (that plan hasn’t changed).

Do you think I failed? I don’t think so. Here is my launch: soft as a feather.

Launch of free curated spreadsheet for activists on 30/10/18 -but only if you give me feedback :-)

Email me at matthew.tehanu@gmail.com to get your free copy of the spreadsheet. I will only be dishing them out until I get 50 engaged respondents -that’s fifty people who give me constructive criticism to feed into the next version. These respondents will get free updates on this product for life, and this product will always be free to active members of XR and Rising Up! (You know who you are). Everyone else, if you wait until January, you’ll pay for it. 🙂

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It’s going to be messy, but I don’t care. I’ve waited for too long to get a product out into the world. What better date to launch it on than the 30th October? This will be exactly one year since I started the Epic Tomorrows blog and exactly one day before the announcement of Extinction Rebellion in Parliament Square, London. Extinction Rebellion (XR) is the NVDA movement I am involved with and for which I co-edit the blog extinctionrebellion.org

XR is the movement that, using the vehicle of mass civil disobedience in London this autumn, resulting in multiple arrests, will demand of the UK government that carbon emissions are reduced to zero by 2025, to prevent catastrophic climate breakdown, and that a democratic citizens’ assembly is created to bring about this decarbonisation.

Due to spending all my time organising for Extinction Rebellion, my blog-business development has fallen by the wayside -or so I thought. Trusting the process of my unfolding life and business, I can now see that that all my experience of activist organisation over the past few months has directly informed the development of my ideas for information products for activists.

On 30th October I will soft launch a free version of my first information product, a curated spreadsheet of websites useful to activists, simply made with MS Excel, with a guiding document on how to use the spreadsheet. It will be messy, it will be a work-in-progress, and it will only contain a couple hundred entries, but I am confident that I have wisdom, empathy and experience enough that many activists will find this to be a useful list. Since I have been hanging around with a lot of climate activists and vegans in recent months, and have recently made the change to total veganism myself, this first free version of the spreadsheet will be weighted in these directions.

I am a generous person (ask anyone who knows me well).

Anyone who gives me significant constructive and honest feedback, (not just, ‘hey, great spreadsheet’ or ‘this spreadsheet is a pile of shit’) will get free updates of this product for life. I have come far enough against the odds to know that eventually, this will be a resource you will feel blessed to have access to. It will take me a little while to get it to that level, so bear with me. More than that -I’m asking you to help me build this thing. If you help me build it at this early stage, you’ll always be a part of it and you’ll never have to pay. If you are an active member of Extinction Rebellion, you will also never have to pay.

In January 2019 I will start charging for the product.

The theory behind my product, and behind Epic Tomorrows, is that disconnection is the final cause, or the umbrella feature, of much catastrophe in modern globalised society, including the likely collapse of global civilisation within the next century. The extent to which we connect and re-connect is the extent to which we can mitigate the collapse and turn it, broadly speaking, into a managed transformation into a more advanced version of human society.

For the activists amongst you, like myself, the need to connect and re-connect is particularly urgent for you to be an effective activist. A key element of this connection is to those information resources that help you ACT! Being an effective activist also means being a healthy person of course. You know this, but you probably struggle with putting it into practice, like I do.

My free spreadsheet and accompanying guide (try them out) will eventually expand to include all these areas of connection and re-connection for activists:

1) Activist to activist (community building)

2) Activist to wholeness / potential, of theirself

3) Activist to basic sustainable physical resources 

4) Activist to wholeness / potential, of regenerative culture

5) Activist to informational, emotional and other resources

6) Activist resource to activist resource

7) Activist org / movement to activist org / movement

There is urgency for ecopreneurs such as myself to disrupt the precarious situation of neoliberal globalised capitalism in enterprises which re-connect what neoliberal capitalism has helped disconnect. This re-connection can help subvert capitalism into a more sustainable and relocalised version of itself, into a truly regenerative culture. This culture isn’t ‘socialism’ by the way, although some socialists I’ve met are friendly to my vision.

If I can kill three bloated corporations with one stone, as the saying should go, and help activists with system change, help set an example for ecopreneurs for system change, and provide a basic living for myself in the meantime, then Epic Tomorrows is serving its purpose.

Email me at matthew.tehanu@gmail.com to get your free copy of the spreadsheet. I will only be dishing them out until I get 50 engaged respondents -that’s fifty people who give me constructive criticism to feed into the next version. These respondents will get free updates on this product for life, and this product will always be free to active members of XR and Rising Up! (You know who you are). Everyone else, if you wait until January, you’ll pay for it. 🙂